Congratulations for not giving up!

Four years ago I was sitting in front of a Dell desktop computer clicking the submit button for my college applications. Four years later and I will soon be clicking the submit button for graduate school. Oh buddy!! Who would have thought I would end up at UCSB repping Gaucho Ole to the fullest? Who would have thought a young lady from Compton would be given the opportunity to take part in higher education. Who would have thought that some of my closest friends would be White, Asian, Native American, Mexican and Black. Who would have thought that I would build relationships with professors and staff. I am a living witness of what working hard,preserving and praying can do. If you want something there has to be less saying and more doing. You have to take those obstacles and make them work out for your good. God you are great and I could not have made it through 4 years on my own strength.. no doubt!

Dear Essence

On Feb 5th I witnessed a beautiful blessing and a bundle of joy came into the world. My niece Essence was born around 5ish. She is my first niece/nephew. Essence looks exactly like my brother, she even has his snotbox (nose). Such a precious jewel given to my family. Though her father may not be with us at this present moment, we will raise her up with plenty family father figures for her to chose from until he gets home.

Dear Essence,

I was not really happy when I found out you were coming through.

But how can i resist you! I am happy you had safe travels coming through

I will offer you up to the Lord, not even close to Abraham and Isaac

I will not sacrifice you on the throne, but I will give you my heart as your home

Though your father is absent, He is present in spirit

When you are with your family, I will make sure that you feel it

You are more precious that rubies, more beautiful that gold

I give you my time and my love =)

I guess there is a time for everything

I have been planning this day, not even sure if I would live to see it. Its 8:15a and I am starting to doubt my plans. I want to go see him at least to show support, but no one else would come with me. I feel discouraged. So I pray Lord what should I do. The Lord told me to leave it in His hands and let Him work it out, like I know He can. I don't want him to be dehumanized by people that don't even know him. I want to be that unexpected voice, playing that supporting role that reveals who he truly is. I hope he don't take a bid. I hope they don't give him life. I hope his own life he does not rid. I pray the Lord will clear his mind of negativity. Its 8:30 I decided not to go and leave it His hands. About 8:56 my mom texted me and said load the camera man. Your niece is on the way. I went from sadness to joy. I wish he could see his newborn baby girl. The daughter he helped bring into the world. I guess there is a time for everything. I wonder what will happen next.